Thursday, October 30, 2008

Pretty in Pink

My sister-in-law Emily e-mailed me this photo--and I had to share it!

I've had two weeks on the chemo pills and almost two weeks off. I'm on an off week, but haven't felt too good yet. Today was the best so far, but the evening was yucky again. It's the yucky/nauseous feeling like when you're pregnant--only I'm not throwing up--I just feel a constant yuck. I've had a little back pain as well. None of this is really horrible, just the thought that this is the rest of my life possibly (I'm still waiting for the cure!). It helps to stay busy and not think about me. There's always worse things. Best to look at the positive. I am grateful for every day that I'm still here.

Last night I was reminded by a friend of one of many amazing moments I've had while dealing with this cancer. The more I thought about it, I realized I've had numerous incredible experiences that have left no doubt in my mind that God lives and cares about me (and you too!). So even though sometimes I might get a little fearful or feel a little (or even a lot) yucky-- I know that everything will be okay because God is watching over me and will take care of me and my family.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Feeling hopeful!

I missed most of the Saturday morning Conference Session from two weeks ago, so I've been watching the archives. I felt like the whole conference was just what I needed to hear. A few nights ago as I was watching, I absolutely loved President Uchtdorf's talk--so in case you're interested, here's the link:
(You have to hit the bottom right arrow twice until you get to the last talk (President Dieter Uchtdorf) and click on his picture.)

I've been doing well on my week off the chemo pills. I'll start again on Monday for another week. I also have a Huntsman appointment on Tuesday to check my blood counts. I'm hoping that miraculously my numbers will be so great they'll take me off the chemo. Is that positive thinking or denial? Either way, it feels good to have hope.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

So far so good!

I've been on my new chemo pills for two days and have felt pretty good! I am a bit tired, but I think I was that way before. I felt a little nauseous this morning, but after a chewing on some ginger I felt much better. I'll be taking 2 pills twice a day for seven days on then seven days off. I need to talk with my homeopathic Dr. to know if I should only be taking his remedies on my off weeks.

Here's beautiful Alaska from last week's trip.

There's a lot of glaciers up there!

It was amazingly sunny for the six days we were there. People said it was incredible to have so many days together where it was clear--in fact this past summer they hardly had three sunny days together. The weather forcast said it would rain the entire time we were going to be there. God knew I needed some sunshine. It's been snowing since we left.